Ok so yesterday I had told you that Joey was getting fixed. Well, I ended up paying 4 times more than I had alotted for so there goes not using my credit card. But, he is worth it. Instead of just neutering him, they also removed a small tumor on his front leg and pulled two teeth. I don't really understand about the teeth because he is still a puppy but I guess its already done. Poor little thing, I felt so bad for him. I thought he was going to be in alot of pain bc he has stiches in his little area and on his leg. And he fooled me on the way home from the vet. He just laid there with his head on my shoulder and wimpered. After we got home.....back to his Joey self. I can't keep him from jumping around, thats just what he does. I don't know what to do.

Ok, so I'm sitting here in bed writing a blog. I should really being trying to do my "homework." For those of you who know, I am doing a 20's bible study with my sister-in-law and some other friends. I am having such a hard time getting into it. I love being with the girls but I just can't seem to get really into the bible study part. I'm not a great reader anyway but it seems that when I try to concentrate on the independent studies it just doesn't make much sense. I feel like I have to read it like 20 times just to get it.

Anyway, I feel like I had a very productive day today. Of course I have monday's off work so I try to do things. I went to get my hair done, which I love. I went back to the doctor today and I feel very relieved and a little more confident now. He answered alot of my questions and actually gave me the real facts about my situation. I had read alot of things on the internet and of course, I should never believe anything that is on internet. Its alot of scary stuff you read. Some people just say wierd things and don't have any facts to back up any of thier information.

I also got doggie vaccines for my "kids" today. I was very nervous because I bought the vaccines and had to give them myself. I was proud of myself, I was actually able to do it and it saved me so much money. I also had to make an appointment for my youngest, Joey. He's a minature pinscher and its time for the dreaded neutering. I feel so bad because I don't want to seem him hurt. Really, my dogs are like my kids. If I feel this bad about having to neuter him, how am I going to feel when I do have kids and they have to have vaccines or they have to has some kind of procedure?

Well, I guess I should get back to trying to finish my "homework"

That perfect guy......

Why can't I find that perfect guy??? I guess the entire time I've been looking in all the wrong places. All I want is someone to care about me, love me and just treat me the way I should be treated! Dadgum....I want someone like that so bad. I need help because obviously I'm not doing a very good job!

I am so glad that tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! I've worked late everyday this week and am ready for some rest! I feel so frustrated that I just want to cry. I have so many things running through my head and some of it I don't even know what it is! I think God made guys just to get on our nerves and to see just how much we can take!! I'm about to go insane!



I am trying to make a "healthy lifestyle change" (my phrase for diet) because I was told I needed to start living healthier. I'm having alot of trouble even though I know the reason I need to do this is very important. Why can't things like this be easy? Why can't I like to eat nasty green veggies and yummy stuff like that? I did figure out one I do like alot. Yellow squash. Of course I like it with butter! that just takes the healthy out of it but atleast its a veggie other than green beans or corn right?

I Can't believe I'm into the Blogging World now?!

So I never thought I would blog, at all, but I guess I am now! I thought I would use this as a release....not that I don't have several best friends to talk to....but there are some of you who I love dearly but I just don't get to talk to you very often. So, maybe this will break the distance between us.

There has been so many things going on in my life and the Stapleton life lately. Sometimes I wish I could just curl up in a ball and make it all go away. It seems like every week is something new to worry about. Of course right now the latest is about my Granny. She has breast cancer and will be having surgery in about 2 weeks, then its Papa and his crazy problems that he has, and of course I always have my most awesome sister-in-law on my mind, and now I'm having some issues.

I would just like to ask you to pray for my family and I. Lots of things are going on. Right now, I'm really struggling with something that is going on with me. I know alot of it is just the mentality of it all so I have my good days and bad. I'm not ready to tell most of you what it is and I hope your not offended if I just don't. But I'm just going to ask if you would, please keep all of this in your prayers.

Wow! Taylor...you are so right, I can express so much just thru writing. But I probably need to stop before I say to much.